Freestyle

Cold sweats, cold chains, old bets, old brains Regrets refrain that i do it again Heart beats, heart stops, heart skips and pops Heart races and chases the same thing again And I'm tired and angered The kindness endangered A kindred spirit Is now but a stranger Disbelief and despair Can I not be repaired? From this constant non-stopping monstrosity called fear? ... I do have hope, happiness, and a smile It's buried around somewhere here in this freestyle I've had many a walk, and many a mile I've gone quite the distance than most with this vile Demon on my back It's just me on the track Exorcisms and prisons inside of me roar For the ten year old me that I've seen once before Cherishing music from 2004 Deeper within conjuring much much more But enough about me, I'm too quiet and inferior To my selfish decline and my shellfish demeanor Can you guess my sign? See I've done it again.. Enough about me, what about my dear friend? What about all the meaningful times that we've spent? Aimfully aimlessly flightful and zen A stranger yes once, a now kindred spirit I told her I'd hear her so why can't i hear it? I don't want to hurt her.. I truly can't bear it. Still sizzle, still singe, i scorch and i sear it If you're still reading i thank you I guess I'm just venting A heavy digest of inner conflict: self resenting