Freedom from hurt
My life was a mess
Many years ago
Weight pilled on
Due to all the abuse
Sexual, physical, mental too
I experienced it all
Happened from I was a child
So, very long ago now
As many said to me throughout my life
Times a healer, wait and see
Many years of depression I knew
So many nights feeling so sad
So very blue, unhappy little me
Screaming from deep within my soul
Longing for the day to be made whole
Will it come; will I be free to be me
These were the thoughts I pondered
Night after night
Two failed marriages why?
Was searching to be loved
A way of escape
Caused a web of trapped entanglement
Broken relationships ruled by fear
Cruelty again, abuse, hurt, pain
Turmoil, torture in my head
My heart was smashed a million times
Yet, I can still show love
Went through my life ups, many downs
Controlled by everyone, except me
For years my health deteriorated
Spiralling down, labels attached
Anxiety, depression, diabetes, fibromyalgia ADHD
Pump up the meds they’ll help, doctor said
Did they hell they made me worse
Felt like a zombie unable to cope
Like sleeping beauty in a trance again
Suddenly, I woke up, a light switched on
I thought clearly for the first time in my life
I’m coming out of the trap of my web
Changing my life in every sphere
I’m in my sixties, my dreams can come true
No longer will I continue to feel blue
It’s happened, off all my pain meds
Kicking sugar now, carbs too is best
Some people don’t agree with me
But hey it is my life, way sick of my mess
Creative writing is what I do best
Write, write I sure will now
This is my time
My best is yet to be
I know I believe in me
My weights fell off stone after stone
I feel like a new person reborn
I’m going for gold, not silver or bronze
All the way forward I will run
With a mission to help everyone
You can break free
You have the choice
To stay as you are
Or soar on eagles’ wings
Fly in new directions
You have the power within you
To change like me, or stay trapped
Forever feeling helpless, alone, sad, blue
Make up your mind
Don’t leave it another day
You’ll never regret coming out of your trap
New confidence, strength, happiness, love
Will be your guide and map
Go for your dreams, make it your destiny
It’s up to you, what will it be?
Come on go for gold today, aim for your best
It’s achievable, give it all you got
Problems don’t go, life gets tough
I’m spreading my wings, I’m gonna fly
Soar to new heights, get my rewards
Fight, fight, never quit
This is my time, I was told today
At the time I needed to hear it
Never saw it like that before
Always put my son before me
Gave him everything I could and more
He’s my pride and joy, my boy
I will not worry, I will not stress
I won’t get into anymore mess
Positive thoughts I will try to think
Always thankful for little things
I believe in miracles
I believe in angels
I believe dreams come true
I believe in you
I believe in me
“In your Write mind” (by Wendy Storer) was the key
Sure, changed my life, a book to behold
The world needs to read it
Too many hurting people out on the street
Needing freedom today
To be who they wanna be!!
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