For My Father Up Above

For my father up above This goes out to you I continue to sin With actions I have no desire to do I know I can be stronger But situations make me weak As much as I ask for your guidance I know The ability is only in me Forgive me for all that I am Forgive me for all that I don’t do To take the actions that are needed To fulfill what I feel I lose I seek for forgiveness In things I can control How can I be so stubborn If it’s something I already know I am not myself I keep saying everyday But is that the truth Or do i lie to myself so that I’m not ashamed I should appreciate more For those who support me But I’m blinded by my desires What is there I do not see Don’t be angry with my sins Only you know my heart Happiness is just not there I feel torn apart I ask what I should do But I know the answer is hidden I just don’t know where to look Even in the scripts I keep reading Even though I surrender to you I can only walk as I know Don’t quit on me my loving father My faith is all I have to show - [ ]