Jimmy Anderson Poet Free verse

For Grandmomma Pt 1

A lot of lessons learned./ I sip this Hennessey and fought the burn./ My mind is clouded with 
so many memories./ I hear your voice "Boy pick yourself up off your knees"./ But I wonder 
why God would take you away from me./ Please Lord I need some clarity./ Nothing makes 
sense.  I cry, I can't lie nor deny I'm drowning in my own dark obscurity./
     The pain remains inside./ Eating me alive./ I wonder without you if I'll survive./ I try and 
hide from the responsibilities in my life, but have no success./ So I'm left with this heartache 
in my chest./ Tears roll down my cheek./ Does that make a man weak?/ God I need to 
know./ Was it just her time to go?/
     So many times I sit down attempting to express what I was feeling,/ but my heart and 
mind wasn't willing./ Nothing I wrote seemed to be enough,/ to compliment you and your 
motherly love./ Every time I thought of you I felt like balling up in a fetal position and dying./ 
I could not write about you without breaking down and crying./
     For awhile I carried a bad attitude./ Looking for an excuse to accuse anyone in my family 
forever disrespecting you./ I think about all the tears my grandmomma shed./ I wished her 
alive and everyone else dead./ Was it my imagination or was it your pretty face I saw in the 
clouds?/ I hope you're looking down on me and you're proud./ And you're hearing my voice 
right now somehow./ I wish there was a button I could push to rewind./ So I can tell you 
what's on my mind./ Kiss your check./ Have you speak./ Hold you just one more time./
     Your passing took away my energy./ You said you would never leave me./ You were 
always so honest./ So when you broke your promise,/ It left me confused./ I felt cheated 
and my soul was bruised./

Con't in Pt 2

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Patrick Cornwall June 3, 2012 at 11:37 AM Congrats on feature...Patrick

Charmaine Chircop December 18, 2009 at 11:06 PM Im sure Grandmomma is looking down on you proudly,She will always be so close to you in spirit,so dont worry..She is still with you and knows all about your feelings ,Jimmy!I can feel your pain in this poem,indeed can..but remember,one day we all shall meet again i heaven..;)LETS GO READ PART TOO:)

Dane Ann Smith-Johnsen November 11, 2009 at 10:39 PM Families can be forever, I've heard. Your grandmother must have been a wonderful person. (More on Part 1)

P Sheart October 5, 2009 at 1:31 PM Bless your heart hun, I echo Sara's sentiments. Loss is the hardest thing to accept in this world. My grandmother raised me to but you know her love lives with me everyday. I'm 47 now but it hurts just the same. It's got to be so much harder are young ones, I can't even imagine. A hug to you. Keep writing for it's good for the soul, smile. Take care and may love endure through you....Love Light Truth Patty

Sara Kendrick October 5, 2009 at 9:05 AM The loss of a close family member is very difficult no matter what our age but the younger one is the harder it is. I know your grandmother loved you by your write and I can tell that you loved her. Keep writing. I am a grandmother of two myself. I pray that God will let me live and keep strength to do what I need to do for them before he takes me home. Sara