First Christmas Without You

Christmas Day has 
come and gone,
I wore my fake smile, 
all day long,

Everyone is full of 
festive cheer,
For me, Im trying 
not to shed a tear,

I don't want to ruin such 
a beautiful, exciting day,
But in my world, it's very cold, 
the skies are very grey.

I know that I have support 
of family and friends,
I often wonder if the tears
will ever end.

I want to be happy, 
for me and for you
But how can I be happy, 
when I am feeling so blue.

My son, he died 
not so long ago,
He was my friend too, 
I wasn't ready to let him go.

How can I be hopeful in
the new year ahead
The new year without him 
is something I dread.

I'll awake each morning, 
just as the sun will rise, 
And perhaps, somehow, 
its a blessing in disguise.

I will never, ever be the same,
No matter how hard I try
I am just a different person 
since the day my child died.

12/26/2019
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