First Christmas Without You

Christmas Day has come and gone, I wore my fake smile, all day long, Everyone is full of festive cheer, For me, Im trying not to shed a tear, I don't want to ruin such a beautiful, exciting day, But in my world, it's very cold, the skies are very grey. I know that I have support of family and friends, I often wonder if the tears will ever end. I want to be happy, for me and for you But how can I be happy, when I am feeling so blue. My son, he died not so long ago, He was my friend too, I wasn't ready to let him go. How can I be hopeful in the new year ahead The new year without him is something I dread. I'll awake each morning, just as the sun will rise, And perhaps, somehow, its a blessing in disguise. I will never, ever be the same, No matter how hard I try I am just a different person since the day my child died. 12/26/2019