Find Strength In My Fear

I'm talking to myself because no one would lend me an ear I managed to find some strength in my fear I've been down and out and hid from everything I wanted It wasn't until I survived my suicide attempt that I realised I'm meant to be here To some this is nothing but rhyming words on a page But this is my truth, if you're smart you will learn from my mistakes If I could go back, I'd focus more on love rather than flirting with random babes When I was lost, The ones I thought who cared didn't come searching in the maze Isn't it sad how most of the backstabbing and betrayal is done by blood? I've messed up with some great girls and have many regrets when it comes to love If you have the person you love by your side, do all you can to keep them there Because there's nothing worse than losing them and constantly being in tears I keep a small circle, I never cared about being popular Not the violent type, but I'll never duck a fight like Deontay Wilder is ducking Anthony Joshua People find poetry beautiful, but don't realise most poets are tortured People wrote me off, but not one of those people made it as an author I told my biggest secret and biggest fear and she exposed it She loved poetry, but didn't care for the poets She cared for beauty, but didn't find it in my art But I can't complain when I cared about her body, but didn't treasure her heart She put her heart in my hands and I broke it Flirted with every single girl I spoke with If I could go back to this chapter then this isn't how I would have wrote it But to never make a mistake like this again is my motive I talk to myself because no one will lend me an ear I found some strength in my fear I got back up after being kicked while I Was down When I survived My suicide attempt, I realised I'm meant to be here