Finally

Finally Doctor, it's been 7 months The MEDs aren't kicking in My dreams are getting stronger, The blood remains to run code red It's getting harder and harder to get out of bed Dark images keep taking place inside my head The voices - The voices, are not all right! I no longer lay laughing The screaming never stops In irons, my mind rattles Theses thoughts are all I got In slow motion, my mind plans the perfect plot Finally, I realize the sanity of this is perfect Counting every single second on the clock At first, I could not breathe I felt, I was left alone, Broken down --- Incomplete In your eyes, the schizophrenia spoke loud In my eyes, everything is dark and gray Doctor, now listen closely, open your eyes While the walls slowly close in on you I have my hands around your neck Finally, I feel my arms, the needles are gone Finally, I realize the sanity of this is perfect The tightening of the chest is clearing Today I possess a little more than yesterday Knowing exactly what needs to be done. DOC YOU AREN'T LISTENING! Was it all for nothing, the bloody wrist? The faucet constantly dripping every night The voices I call my friends Deep, deep down, I'm still a child, painting bedroom walls Setting fires after my mother's death A crazy peril in its most threatening state Doc, here you are again, No longer will I allow you to waste my time With your fetish lies, trying to make me better The problem is not me, it was always you! Painting pink butterflies and white skies Finally, I realize the sanity of this is perfect Don't you understand she's dead! Pills aren't going to bring her back Padded rooms aren't going to help me, Help myself --- grieve the proper way! Straitjackets aren't going to restrain me, --- from wanting to hurt badly! Psychologically, I'm perfectly sane Expressing my emotions a different way. Doctor, you're not saying nothing You're not moving, You're just sitting there pretending to care. Doc, I hope you aren't mad? The voices explained it had to end this way How else could I make you listen? Finally, the impulse is gone Finally, I'm going to be alright by: Pd