Funom Makama Poet Dramatic Monologue

Fighting God

You promised to take care of me like a new cherished bride
I cling to it, waiting until at the point of suicide
now your expectations and my anger collide
because your blessings seem to always find a place to hide
I try to be my own guide
then you caution me and call it pride
very little, you want me to decide
and you say I’ll be okay by just being on your side

I’m tired and have kept all these talk aside
following my own path and taking my ride
my self belief has beaten faith landslide
everything about you in me must suffer a genocide
your rules and ordinances, no more will I abide
if serving you comes with trials then I wish my loyalty had long died
and the dividends of my worship to you, just divide

Lord God!
Now I know twas an uneasy stride
now I understand, your blessings and my discipline must coincide
now I’ve seen that your love is so high and wide
and hating you is like becoming the voluntary victim of a homicide
I said you do not care, please Lord, I lied

Your ways are mysterious indeed
You searched my heart and all you saw was greed
because only my desires and blindness I feed
and you knew among the wheat, I’ll be a weed.

Despite I, not taking heed
You were still patient and ever ready to lead
You never gave me what I wanted nor stick to my timing
but at the appointed time, lavished me with all I need
while watering my entire efforts’ seed.
Thank you heavenly father! Leaving your presence, I now forbid
and serving you wholeheartedly is henceforth my utmost deed.


for the poetry contest "Fighting God
sponsored by rob carmack

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Andrew Fairchild December 23, 2018 at 1:29 AM Thomas Merton once said something to the effect that: "I wrestle often with God, but always with the intent of losing!" Well, you have truly epitomized the struggle that the sense of struggle makes! Thank you for this, it's wonderful!

Vivien Wade July 2, 2017 at 8:24 PM Just read this poem and loved it, especially last verse. In Christ we are blessed , Ephesians I:3 I wish you a First Peter 5:7 day. Vivien

Paul Schneiter January 1, 2016 at 11:30 PM This powerful, thought-provoking poem captures the struggle with faith that afflicts countless mortals. I was fascinated by every line, as well as by a remarkable achievement involving the rhyme design. Excellent! Funom Makama January 28, 2016 at 8:38 AM Thank you so much Schneiter

Paul Schneiter January 1, 2016 at 11:30 PM This powerful, thought-provoking poem captures the struggle with faith that afflicts countless mortals. I was fascinated by every line, as well as by a remarkable achievement involving the rhyme design. Excellent! Funom Makama January 28, 2016 at 8:39 AM No need for apologies Schneiter... Thank you so much Paul Schneiter January 1, 2016 at 11:33 PM Apologies for the double posting (caused by a technical glitch).

Paul Schneiter January 1, 2016 at 11:30 PM This powerful, thought-provoking poem captures the struggle with faith that afflicts countless mortals. I was fascinated by every line, as well as by a remarkable achievement involving the rhyme design. Excellent! Funom Makama January 28, 2016 at 8:39 AM Once again Thank you so much Paul Schneiter

Bl Devnath May 29, 2015 at 11:13 AM Wow! it's a very nice devotional poem, i feel. i loved much and much your feeling, my lovely friend. You are a nice person, i am sure. i loved the line extremly..."hating you is like becoming the voluntary victim of a homicide'. 7++ i feel. Loved always,bl Funom Makama January 28, 2016 at 8:38 AM Thank you so much Devnath

Paul Schneiter May 28, 2015 at 6:49 PM Funom, your extraordinarily skillful use of words is beautifully dramatized in this poem. It amazes me that you maintain the rhyme scheme without it becoming a distraction. And as for the change in attitude toward God: superbly accomplished. Wonderful! Funom Makama January 28, 2016 at 8:38 AM Thank you so much Paul Schneiter

Debra Irsik May 16, 2015 at 12:59 PM I am not well versed on monologue but this is a heartfelt poem. Your honesty is admirable. I believe each of us must at some point question our faith to grow. Great poem. Funom Makama January 28, 2016 at 8:37 AM Thank you so much Debra

Graphite Drug April 21, 2015 at 5:20 PM People say there is a fight between good and evil in us all. It is rare somebody can capture it and put it in words. This poem is an experience. Glad to have read it and be aware of another’s struggles with such familiar territory. Funom Makama April 26, 2015 at 10:22 AM Thank you so much Graphite Drug

David Furlong March 3, 2015 at 5:00 PM I can only add my congratulations also to all that has been offered from the others. I particularly like your third stanza Funom. Very moving. Bright blessings, Davis Funom Makama March 21, 2015 at 12:30 PM Thank you a million times David!

Janet Eaton February 18, 2015 at 2:37 PM Beautifully written, Congrats on your win! Janet Funom Makama February 20, 2015 at 12:21 PM Thank you so much Janet

Funom Makama February 16, 2015 at 12:54 PM Yeaaaahhhh! Happy me! Happy me! This is my first win ever in poetrysoup... I hope it will be the beginning of my contest successes... Thank you every one for your support

Skat A February 16, 2015 at 12:23 AM Funom, CONGRATS on your win ~ SKAT ~ Funom Makama February 16, 2015 at 12:05 PM Thank you so much SKAT A... I am grateful

Eve Roper February 15, 2015 at 3:35 PM Congratulations on your win a 7. Very inspirational fight. Blessings Eve Funom Makama February 16, 2015 at 12:04 PM Yeah Eve Roper... I am so grateful for your encouragement

Darkland Poetry February 13, 2015 at 3:04 PM This is beautiful! Congrats on your win. :) Funom Makama February 16, 2015 at 12:03 PM Thank you so much Rachel Firmin... I really appreciate your sweet comment

Jan Allison February 12, 2015 at 2:03 PM beautifully written Funom congrats on your win:-) Hugs jan xx Funom Makama February 13, 2015 at 6:46 AM Oh Jan... Thanks so much. I really appreciate it

Poesy Relish February 12, 2015 at 6:19 AM A beautiful pen Funom... congrats on the deserving win... #7, a fav.. nad! Funom Makama February 13, 2015 at 6:45 AM Thank you so much Nadiya

Rob Carmack February 12, 2015 at 4:18 AM Funom, congrats and thanks for this fine entry for my contest. Funom Makama February 13, 2015 at 6:45 AM Thank you for the wonderful ranking and privilege to participate. I hope we enjoy more of such union

Dr. Upma A. Sharma February 12, 2015 at 4:10 AM Superb write dear Funom,, congrats on big win! Funom Makama February 13, 2015 at 6:44 AM Thank you so much Dr. Upma

Herzel Poshiwa February 11, 2015 at 1:32 AM Nicely done my dear Funom...this is a struggle we always have but God knows best..Good luck in the contest my friend...xx Funom Makama February 11, 2015 at 8:44 AM Thank you for your understanding on the mood portrayed in this poem... But as you have rightly concluded, God knows best

Laura Leiser February 10, 2015 at 1:57 PM Excellent account of the spiritual struggles we go through as believers. Well done! Funom Makama February 11, 2015 at 8:43 AM Thank you so much Laura Leiser

Eileen Manassian February 10, 2015 at 6:29 AM WOW! This was written with passion and conviction Funom. I was caught there...right in the struggle. This will do well, indeed. Lovely piece....thanks for sharing Funom Makama February 10, 2015 at 6:47 AM Thank you, thank you, thank you sooooo much Eileen. Its nice to know I share the same experience with a poet friend.... God bless you my dear friend