Fiftieth Reunion Reflections

Thinking back on my all White but One, all Right but One, classroom learning experience, I can see why many of my straight white male classmates, especially those with early varsity team excellence and above average grade point systems tipping toward future capital-valued employment might feel disappointed, sometimes angry, about what feels like insufficient lifetime affirmation, Hungering for more environmental messages: We are positive providers, a healthy addition to history, a wealthy contributor to our military-industrious society. Yet, to receive globally ubiquitous messages warning of climates degenerating instead of continuing business as formerly usual regenerating, as we become run-away capitalist libertarians, kleptocratic, educator- and clergy-led to disproportionately expect from generous Gaia or fair and merciful God active support for listening to straight while male prophets of sin and dualistic gloom and retributive judgments from an OldSchool Angry Jealous Conservative of White StatusQuo God, Rapturous EndTimes that do not remember elite histories of varsity team excellence, and first chair performance in all straight white adolescent symphonies, and above average discernment of strategic tipping points, Eternal Raptures that predict sinful Earth will flood and hurricane and melt and quake and burn burn burn While all straight white hats and RightWings of angels and saints arise to an escapist Heaven free of healthy green ecological systems and unfree of multiculturally wealthy theological egosystems, To live happily yet uniformly unstraight and ungay and untrans and unmale and unfemale and unblack and unwhite and unbrown and unchanging and unyoung and unold and unrepublican and undemocratic and unautocratic and unkleptocratic and uncooperative and uncompetitive and unfamilial and uncommunitied and unapartheid and unsegregated and yet maybe polypathic and polyphonic and even rational/emotional polynomial balance In some abstract transmutation inside/outside bilateral ways and means of timeless eternal revolutionary theological understanding. All this unrapturous Rapture confusion aside, It still seems petty, to my gay white male frame of mind, that so many of my straight brothers and sisters and classmates, and Sunday School extended family, claim discrimination against us when our actual experience has, at worst, known and felt insufficient affirmation for all our fragile elite climates, ecological, theological, economic capital, psychological, sociological monocultural, ethological, Habitually addicted to concluding all sinful nature is a pathological win/lose risk, rather than also hopeful, diversely embodied, healthy spirits of integral win/win resilient opportunity To heal climates inside/outside by therapeutic justice restoring 2020 revived revolutionary peace.