Fear

Fear – anxiety, panic, alarm Dread that may be without purpose But a darkness that is powerful and strong It was fear – That taught me to listen to the demons Of doubt, distrust and discouragement It was fear – That left me feeling like I was unworthy When Jesus whispered “faith” to my heart It was fear – That silenced my hopes and my dreams Colored me in hues of doubt and disbelief It was fear – That lingered on my thoughts when I was hurting Breaking through the peace, the serenity in my soul It was fear – That smothered out all my greatest inspirations Destroying my ideas, my insights into contentment It was fear – That ruined the beauty of those moments When joy sought me out to fill my spirit with elation It was fear – That wrecked my plans when I was on fire, passionate About some hope or desire, purpose that was alive in me It was fear – That erased my designs when I had things figured out Leaving me with complete confusion, perplexed and disillusioned It was fear – That darkened the sun’s rays, editing out grace Promising nirvana when all that was – was shame It was fear – That hurried me past the wonder and the awe Gone were the joys that comforted my thoughts It was fear – That promised me the moon and the stars When, in all truth, there was only the cynicism It was fear – That allowed me to reflect on the losses Wounds that were painful and tinted with heartache It was fear – That coached me in hatred and loathing Prompting my aversion to the light of truth It was fear – That sought me out with its heated breath Raging horrors of apprehension and distress It was fear – That I left behind when I found His grace Saving me from my unending quest for faith! Isaiah 41:10 (KJV) Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.