Fantastic Emotions

As I lay outside gazing at the stars My emotions flare up and there tearing me apart Trying to avoid laying in the dark My daily life is moving really fast Sometimes I have to stop and really ask What is my earthly task I try really hard to take a righteous path I'm always trying to not live in the past I feel like I'm living behind a scary mask Is life really all that it's cut out to be Or am I blind I hope that I can see This is something that I really really need The stars are full of beauty and lots of hope Or I'm I sliding down a fast slippery slope Sometimes I think this is all a joke The world is massive and full of magic You have to stop and think that it really is fantastic Why does everything thing got to be so dramatic Floating in the middle of a giant black hole I just want to know what's going on in this reality show I'm always trying to just go with the flow All of the secrets the pain and the lies Things are messed up, that's something we can't deny All I want to do is to try and feel alive I'm always trying to not over analyze I find it's hard to turn my brain off Am I fragile or really really soft I feel dirty and completely unwashed I just want to thank God for all of his gifts And just a little bit of help so we can fix all of this There's got to be a final plot to this earthly twist Sometimes I feel like like he don't exist The pain and the suffering that is all going on I have a feeling that something is really really wrong Sorry I had to write this depressing song