Family Stone

In high school, before I dropped out,
I’d sit by the creek bed
smoke cigarettes and grass with my friends and
say; “something is missing, man; 
something’s not right.”  But 

Everyone feels they’re an outcast 
at sixteen, sweet
potential bursting unseen
in the long dull mirror 
of mediocrity.

Stoned, I’d contemplate the lay of the land:  
Dad awaiting the losses of autumn
three siblings, strangers breezing in 
and out, one sister younger, 
thunder, lightening
the charge in our mother’s storms.

How to navigate that landscape? 
Grief wound through dense foliage 
my family’s deception 
a gemstone buried 
many years in acidic soil.

I finally unearthed that small hard mass
and revealed that who I wasn’t—
how I didn’t 
fit, was at its root.  

Now I tend my autumn garden 
and walk its winding paths: 
one of stone; my life as given 
one of earth that kept that silence
each is someone’s secret tracing 
soulprints toward home.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2011

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George   Avatar
July 7, 2011 at 6:05 PM
I have read this so many times, Jen. Love, Elaine
George   Avatar
April 27, 2011 at 11:00 AM
Dear Jen, I will email you as soon as I pull myself together. Love, Lainie
George   Avatar
April 27, 2011 at 10:50 AM
I understand this so well. I have sent you a soupmail dearheart.
Guzzi Avatar
April 22, 2011 at 6:15 AM
Hi there new friend the site is behind the times in regard to it's diffinition of haiku, the current trend is to stay less than 17 syllables and to maintain the short/long/short structure with a 2 part verse, the shift in associated thought comes after what's called a CUT/juxtaposition. Many writers are still including seasonal refferances in haiku. I have blogs in this go back through my old blogs HUGS.
Sweetheart Avatar
April 20, 2011 at 6:57 PM
Awesome write Soulfire and much intensity as u draw the reader into your world of experimentation and thoughts... it is all a process we all go through.. rebellious stage is part of life... only to graduate to a new phase and more experiences.. enjoyed this one ..making it a new fav for the "Sweetheart" luv..
Onclaud Avatar
April 19, 2011 at 4:57 AM
your soul transforms.. a radiant expo on spiritual renewal, soulfire... winning wishes and huggs! come visit my pages..:)
Long Avatar
April 18, 2011 at 3:27 PM
very nice!! I can picture it.. cory
Mehta Avatar
April 18, 2011 at 3:07 PM
Thanks for the comments on my surreal poem. Yes, I have seen the movie "Pollock" starring Ed harris, soulfire
Cooper Avatar
April 18, 2011 at 9:29 AM
very well said!
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