Falling

EVERY DAY I WAKE UP AND I SIT AND WONDER WHY WHY DO I HAVE THESE TEARS FALLING FROM MY EYE THE THINGS I GO THROUGH I WOULDENT WISH IT FOR NO ONE NOT EVEN ON MY ENEMIE OR SATAIN'S LITTLE SON WHY DO PEOPLE BUG ME AND JUDGE ME FOR NO REASON IS LIKE THEY SEE ME AS A OPEN WOUND THAT CANT STOP BLEEDING EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE IS JUST CRASHING TO THE FLOOR AND IM AT THE POINT NOW WHERE I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE MY HEADACES WONT GO AWAY AND MY MIND KEEP SPINNING WHICH MEAN THAT IM STRESSED OUT AND THE PAIN IS STILL LIVING ALOT OF PEOPLE IN MY LIFE SAY THAT I AM UGLY AND EVERYDAY THERE IS SOMEONE DIFFERENT WHO IS JUDGING ME IM TRYING TO STAY STRONG AND IM TRYING TO STAY TOUGH BUT THIS ROAD IS TO LONG AND THE REALITY IS TO ROUGH IM FALLING DOWN AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO GET UP AND IN THIS SITUATION THE ONLY THING THAT WILL HELP ME IS GOODLUCK IM PRAYING EVERYDAY AND IM PRAYING EVERY NIGHT BUT IM STILL FACING THESE NEGATIVE SITUATIONS IN MY LIFE GOD I PRAY NOW WHICH I PRAY EVERYDAY I WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE TO GO A BETTER WAY I DONT WANT TO BE 24 AND STILL BE DUMB AS I WAS WHEN I WAS 15 I WANT TO BE WASHED AND SPIRITUALLY CLEAN I DONT WANT TO CRY EVERYDAY AND GRIEVE EVERY NIGHT I WANT TO KNOW THAT RIGHT NOW THAT THIS IS MY LIFE IM FALLIN NOW AND IM GOING EXTREMELY FAST AND I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW LONG THIS IS TO LAST EVEN THOUGH I TRY AND I TRY EVERYDAY I WOULD NEVER SEE WHERE IM GOING TO LEARN A BETTER WAY I HATE THE FACT THAT IM ONLY 15 AND I GOT PROBLEMS SO BIG THAT YOU WOULDENT EVEN BELIEVE IM DOING MY BEST AND IM TRYING REAL HARD BUT WITH NEGATIVE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE I WOULD NEVER GO FAR BELIEVE NOW FOR I HAVE NOTHING MORE TO SAY CAUSE EVEN THOUGH I TRY IS LIKE I WOULD NEVER SEE A BETTER DAY WRITTEN BY: JILLIANNE P. SWABY 7/23/05