Fading Away the Mark of Misery

I must admit You left me broken… I am shattered shards, Spread out on your hands… Your sweaty palms of uncertainty at hand But, we will land in a land of I-understand… Make a stand and things won’t get out of hand Don’t break up the band of creativity and cheer… Your ideas you formulate are as numerous and vast like the seashore's shimmering sand Want to hold you dear, but you need no trace of fear Fading away the mark of misery As fast as the sway of the sea's breeze Tattoo your surreal, tranquil remedy Upon my beating chest of a strength that kills away the weak disease That tries to break me I fought back passionately Hear my cries during nightfall Lord, You made me tall after my fall I am just these useless pieces of nothing still... I will be fixed sooner or later With godly words, Written down with much thought and heart of thrill, On the tablet of my torn-apart heart, A scorched-aflame art from the start In God's eyes I am an un-cursed, Vibrant verse, Unspoken I look like a tragedy A tainted miracle, Hardly able to seek healing With the Lord by my side, Blessings are possible... He has done the impossible With powers of strength and mercy, Marvelously moving and invincible Alive, I survived, but angst in me hasn't died... Yet, God will hear my pleas of liberty times infinity Past lover of mine, You don’t get The way I deal with these feelings Deep inside, this regret Is kissing me with bruises, Killing me in the process… You seem not to care regardless No matter what, I’ll keep trying to lift from my lows soon Trials are serpentine To my soul of corruption I'm fine, be kind and show me some sign That you care to change your ways Or you'll see my rage-wild-fire eruption You will take a long time to be stitched up...longer than the Alaskan winters of bittersweet, darksome days You are an epiphany in my restless brain You are the envy, going down the drain Fallen into place the moment You gave me something to hold onto I am the shade of yellow rather than blue Be my starry frame of twinkling, turquoise treasure, so elegant and brilliant You are a vessel of endurance tonight Shine your celestrial-luminated candlelight That way, you will flourish In faithfulness and its fervor-burning flight, Minus the anguish Plus might Times delight Divided by fright I am sorrowful… It’s such a pity, I know so well… Well, get ready For an avalanche Of hope and joy from dusk to dawn It’s satisfying like salad and ranch With extra organic veggies to chomp on Daylight is letting loose the demons Inside my mind and fading them out Nighttime will not shed me tons and tons Of shame and regret and doubt, You know what I am talking about I ran out of breath today… I wanted to stay with you forever, But time took you away Guess I was less significant - hey, I want to be a person who will get better As time ticks on by like a troublesome clock as it chimes Taken away from you once more I am without your embrace that I adore I am exceedingly sorry I have hurt you so much… I love you so much, I miss your tenderizing touch I hate to say farewell to a once-loyal friend like you I want to mend your aches and pains That bleed inside you, it grows too fast to start anew I need you to know, you’re not alone… Keep yourself motivated By never giving up completely But…yeah, you’re right, I’m not one to talk I suppose I can’t walk your walk Or place my feet into your sandals… I can be your beach with many seagulls… As long as you fly with me in sunrises and sunsets You can soar into the ocean's auras and reflections You and I will be whole once more, no more regrets God will lead the way He will give you freedom of doing your decisions... Hoping that later on today, You’ll be my yesterday and tomorrow of gladness all the way With no talk of dismay, I pray I must admit I am not one to talk, Sorry if I acted like a hypocrite I was a hypocrite, but now I am different...give me a chance I am an empathetic individual now, I am making a difference I want to attempt to walk in your skin from within and everything...so, don't doubt yourself SYMPATHY is from my heart like a board, marked with chalk - listen and see for yourself That I am not perfect myself... I am a flaw within a flaw within a flaw within a flaw... You understand and you know me well, not in awe The words I write are words that are deep with sentiments They are confusing me and gives me scars so raw I am aware of what you saw...the beast and the monster that I was, Not surprised at all frankly...thankfully, you saw the good and bad in me... Regrets collect in my mindset... It gets me excruciatingly upset My mind is sorted out in aqua-seared fragments And frozen in igloo-shaped ice-charred segments I am broken too…a flawed poem in the making A mending is on its way, so hold on – Peace and guidance, along with courage, is from within us If we keep holding on till doubts are gone I am broken, it’s all true and over with…so stop pretending That we haven’t done anything wrong to ourselves Grab a hold of the ever-dangling, thick rope of hope… Get a grip and quit being high off of depression's dope I am quite certain We can be fearless If we let go of the curtain Of our endless, dry distress Moisturize my mind of memories that overflow constantly and leaves me with skin and bones It's a flood I have drowned in that refreshes my body with blemishes of dangerous, lonely zones Seek wisdom… Surely, hardships will turn to a cure of happiness God's kingdom Will sweep up the dust and our mess of mere madness, Obliterating sadness… Replacing it with gladness Oh, finally, yes