Facing My Fears
Let me believe again in the things that I once held dear.
I want to be able to express myself and make it very clear.
I want to know how to listen well, to know what is true.
To recognize deceit, and knowing what I need to do.
I want to face the fear I have, dealing with specific things.
To push through it, wanting the clarity, that it brings.
Seeing what is real and accept it without averting my eyes.
Before making a decision, using logic to analyze.
Being mindful, of all that goes on around me everyday.
Not to be caught off guard, and having a price to pay.
People come and go, be sure that who stays is a friend,
someone who is tried and true, loyal to the end.
To be loving and kind, but knowing one from the other.
Kindness shown, is not a substitute for the love of another.
Sadly, I look at things differently, life has made me change.
I don't want to give up, I need to learn to rearrange.
I am not an optimistic person, a pessimist from the start.
It is not easy to be an optimist when being torn apart.
My perceptions are not as accurate as they should be.
I can't afford to make mistakes, the cost is too high for me.
Being open an honest, was what I thought life was about.
Unfortunately I learned otherwise, so now I live with doubt.
Trying to find a sort of in-between place to be
To believe, but not too much, a daunting challenge for me.
Copyright © Sandra L. Weiss | Year Posted 2018
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