Expressions

I am angry I am sad I am hurt I am jealous I am lonely I am burdened I am hollow And I feel used I am happy I am joyous I am ecstatic I am chatty I am horny I am dumb I am stupid And I feel loved All these feelings I suppressed Cuz I never learnt how to express To be honest about my feelings And to be vulnerable enough These un-expressions haunt me still In the form of tears and epiphanies And make my thoughts go against my will Swinging between those of worthlessness and self-pity If only, I were loved enough If only, I felt connected The story would be something else The story would have been someone else’s But I know now THIS is my story So, I am learning to accept And I am learning to love Everything that is me And everything that is not me I am learning to express Through these words Those gaps in my soul I can see the light now Radiating from these gaps And I hope to redeem myself Through the beauty of this light show To give me hope Give me courage Give me strength To bear the pain To forgive the hurt And to love again!