Excruciatingly Painful
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I'm in a dark place; there's no light of hope,
happiness is but a fleeting moment in time.
I'm in pain, unbearable, physical, emotional pain,
there is no cure, no refuge, and no explanation,
only daunting, depressive darkness.
I wear a practiced smile to camouflage my inadequacy,
in wrestling with my invisible demons.
Seeing others smile and be happy is paramount to torture,
for I've never been pain-free
it's always been a part of my life,
and thoughts of suicide seduce my mind.
I've tried; God knows how hard I've tried, but I can't
deal with this constant debilitating pain; I just can't!
Life lost its appeal, levying a heavy toll
on my soul death offers painless oblivion.
Tears dribble down my face
when I hear, "it can't be that bad."
It doesn't take courage to kill myself,
it takes courage not to.
In a flash, it could all be over,
no more pain, no more tears, no more me.
But I'm not a quitter!
And yet, no matter how strong I try to be,
this silent, invisible disease persists; it isn't in my head.
Yes! I've tried and still try everything !!!
I struggle daily with pain, mobility problems, and fatigue,
the fact is autoimmune diseases, though rare,
are both real and excruciatingly painful.
(Free Verse)
2/2/2021
Break My Heart, Why Don't Cha Poetry Contest
Sponsored by: Edward Ibeh
Copyright © Emile Pinet | Year Posted 2021
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