Evolving Into Myself

Some enjoyed stealing my joy, squelching my light
I let them because I was young, and I thought worthless
They made fun of my talents, calling me names
So, I hid them, thinking naysayers were smarter than I.
That’s a part of feeling worthless.

When I became a mother, things changed.
I was surrounded by tiny beings who loved me.
They were my orbits, and I was their sun.
I ventured out a bit, risking a slice or two of the real me.
Others did not make fun of me, they seemed to relate.

When I became a grandmother one of my new chicks changed me.
She begged me to use a canvas. I had bought them for her.
She was the talent; who was I?
She would not let up, so I decided to waste one.
My life changed with my first painting,
now confidence parades my truth.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2022

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Leffanta Avatar
March 11, 2022 at 10:49 AM
Nice one, Caren! Nothing like oils to ease old age! Aloha!
Krutsinger Avatar
March 12, 2022 at 5:03 AM
I do not paint in oils though Rico - although I love the VIVIDNESS of oils, they take too long to dry. I am too impatient to wait three days for each color to dry, so I have to use acrylics so I do not smear all the colors together.
Hankins Avatar
March 11, 2022 at 10:00 AM
A marvelous revelation of finding yourself, Caren, and how marvelous that you did. You are bringing so much joy and laughter to those who know you, not to mention what you are doing to countless children whom you interact with every day. You are a trophy in yourself, Caren.
Krutsinger Avatar
March 12, 2022 at 5:03 AM
I love being the real me now that I know who she is.
Bauer Avatar
March 11, 2022 at 9:34 AM
This is wonderful, Caren! You have beautifully described your coming into yourself in a powerful and poetic way. Bravo!
Krutsinger Avatar
March 12, 2022 at 5:04 AM
Thank you Ilene - I have to admit my children and grandchildren brought me into myself.
Lawless Avatar
March 11, 2022 at 4:25 AM
AIN'T IT THE TRUTH!!!!
Krutsinger Avatar
March 12, 2022 at 5:04 AM
I only tell the truth John; I think you recognize this.
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