Eternal Pain

things shall never b the same between the crying and the screaming my heart body and soul is in pain deep cuts to my flesh the wounds so visible yet not so noticeable i see you i see the love exchanged your gentle hugs and kisses how that one there has love for his misses i envy my heart envies my soul envies i mean i mean o how my body envies conversation is not the same i no longer have fun playing yahtzee games i cry lakes i walk with pain at the sight of anothers happiness i fill complete with jealousness making up deliberation to try and find solice maybe some justification i search and come up short only to start back at square one with pain tears anger and fear the longing and wanting of that soul that once mate of a soul who i believed kept me whole who i feel who i keep close and i fall to the ground thinking why me! why me! why for the heavens sake must it be me! the gut ripping staomach aches hot head pains tight throat shakes so bad i walk under the sun with a coat i look to the east desiring hoping to return yet inside of me right no i feel ETERNAL PAIN to forever burn...