Emotions Beacuse Im a Woman

i'm standing on the edge of a skyscraper, confident to jump. to give up. and i do. and the three seconds i thought i'd spend falling without thought become a whirlwind of the things i could have done but never got the chance to, the things i should have done but never wanted to; the people i hurt, the people my death will hurt; every negative energy within me swells, binding and blinding me as i fall to despair. my life flashes before my eyes- and i drown in regret before i even hit the cement. this thought makes faucets of my eyes.