Earth Hugging

What could I do? What to do when your biological, and even formerly sober ecological, relationships suddenly veer insanely romantic? Or worse, mistrustful and yet not always distrustful, or not, maybe deeper sadness and occasional manic gladness emerging inclusively wider questions of approach and/or avoid Both romantic and yet soberly pedantic sometimes before, to plan, for after feeling up and/or sore predicts anxiously down, as genocide predicts ecocide yet quietly ejects matricide, as biological attraction follows ecological co-invested spiritual transaction Secular lust must be felt sacred just to know need for win/win romance from greed for a winner take all anthroprivileged self-centering chance to flex divine power without sharing humane light, capital wealth without nutritional health, disvalues of Yang infestment without Yintegral co-investment values predation without co-operative elation My rabid rabbit hole suddenly re-opening inter-religiously grasping indigenously divine romantic mystery of sacred nomadic history not told or remembered Even before graceful mother trees with sturdy father sun-filled limbs felt sexy and bark, like skin, felt consensual, ecologically curious and biologically courageous Mystically nondualistic Yanged up healthy and yet also, more kinda ecofeminist Yintegral safe sex wealthy yet curiously pantheistic MotherEarth [is, and is not my sacred EarthMother] outrageously romantic wombing What to do when win/win romantic co-investments don't go green cooperative ecstatic resiliently resonating peak experiences quietly more than diplomantic? Manic instead, may feel not just egotistic but also HumanPredative pedantic privilege more than ecologically resilient and/or romantically brilliant, depending, I suppose, on which side of the secular courage v sacred curiosity I may feel, and need, and want to reposition this love transition day Worshipping manly mountains and crouching in warm breezed grassy valleys multiculturally enlightening and polyculturally empowering New ego/eco-logical systemic questions about what to do when One dominating monotheistic StraightWhiteMale dogmatically scripted incorporated religion in AnthroPrivileged power Yet disproportionately GrandMother inflowing funded and nurtured and fed while marginalized, still feeling disenfranchised and ZeroTrauma Tolerance stuck On what to do when your biological and even formerly ecological sacred relationships suddenly veer insanely win/win romantic or lose/lose traumatic restoring/postponing peace in-between monotheistic aggressive Poles and panentheistic sacred Holes I suppose it has something to do with avoiding your personal slam-bam purposes to feed and seed our EarthRevival slow-grown inspiraling cooperative deep sacred meaning is also highest and best mindbody use, not more ZeroZone abuse Tipping WuWei toward P = N(NP) equitable chance of ego/eco-systemic win/win resilient romance polynomials Bio/eco-logical resonant polypathic brilliance polymathically elegant as LeftBrain Either/Or Light v Dark is to RightBrain Both/And +1/-(-0)= EcoPolitical BiLateral Balance Full EarthTribal Equity in-between positive enlightening poles are not negative disempowering holes Expressed in polyvagal neuro-systemic communication eco-systemic not not mental health natural/spiritual cooperative wealth thought/felt trauma prevention internal/external resonant affection resiliently romantic good health humored co-inspiring bipartisan balance non-issues Which keep obsessively and compulsively, defensively and liberally avoiding and approaching fleeing courage and fighting/freezing curiosity looping back to what should I do when my biological health fights my former ecological wealth of co-empathic communication systems, suddenly and insanely veering pan-sensory win/win RightBrain felt blue sad lose/lose? yet red glad ecstasy soft-circling edge double-negative boundaries do not inhale dramatic choice to not exhale romantic voice Courageous risk and curious non-risky opportunity feel thriving way therapeutic more than merely surviving win/lose post-traumatic ballistic bore and pre-traumatic lose/lose sore. What can I do? I think we both want win/win more.