Dual - Not Me
I don’t know what I did
To deserve to be myself
Interpret that how you like
It is what you think it is.
I am dual-sided
A hypocritical little girl
With an aged mind
Who doesn’t know what she wants
Or how she wants it.
I get it.
I don’t get what they have.
My roses smell like crap
And someone poisoned my chocolates.
It was probably me.
I am not worthy
Of the things that come to me
There is no reason for me to be
So damned confident
But despite my protestations to the contrary
I can be at times,
While simultaneously
Hating my dirty, entitled guts.
I say all the things
Meant to be left unsaid
And I don't say
All that you need to hear.
Anxiety is what fills my stomach
Nourishes me and gives me the drive
To continue to function.
Something’s got to give
Let’s just hope it’s not me.
Copyright © Allison Kinzy | Year Posted 2007
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