Dreamer

Things are never as it seems,when things are bad at least I still have my dreams. They say that as time goes by things will get better but i have no idea if i will be able to put the past behind me and finally move on without you. the walls are closing in all around me,and things are not like they once were. the winds of change surround me i don't know where to turn i feel so unsafe i have no idea if is a dream or a nightmare that i just cant seem to wake up from the pain i feel is so unbearable ,i 'm barely holding on. please somebody wake me up.i need help i am drowning . i cant save myself. Need to get rid of the ghosts of my past that haunt me day and night. my world has turned upside down i do not know who i am anymore . i have become so cold ,i cant seem anything anymore my tears have stained my cheeks for so long,that they have dried up for good all i have left know is my dreams and memories. and i will never let them go again. I've been sitting here for hours starring at the clock watching my life pass me By. the scars have faded but the pain still remains the walls are closing in around me i can hardly breathe every time i let my walls ,promise it will be different this time. but i end up getting hurt just like before when will this nightmare end but i end up getting hurt just like before when will this nightmare end everyone i love gives up on me ,but will my dreams will come true