Drama

It’s a messed up world out there, we all got trauma  Real question is, do you avoid the drama? When someone tells you secrets, do you blab em to the world? Or keep ‘em locked up like you should? I keep yours and I keep mine deep down They build up over time, I’m gonna drown Up to my ears in this mess that I can’t change  Deep in the waters of the bad days  I hate going through stuff alone, but that’s the way it goes The days are bright and the nights are cold Fall is coming but I fell long ago Even the high temps leave me low But I cover up and wear a mask Pushing the real me further back Forget who I really am, short term memory Cuz I lost the good ones from the last century  I reach out to my friends so our relationship doesn’t end Then if I stop them texts, I’ll never hear anything   Do what I can to keep myself sane But still have these thoughts every day Doc said that and Doc said this Asked me what’s good and what’s amiss We pay you good to do your job Why can’t you tell me what’s going on? Nobody knows, there’s no diagnosis  I’d rather be told I have scoliosis Cuz this pain is a constant, sometimes worse  Never better, always hurts  Smile like it’s good, drive through the hood To my one day a week job, it’s not very good Losing my sanity quicker than I’m getting money You can’t tell if I’m joking, cuz it all sounds funny Welcome to my life, it’s kinda strange But I cover up and wear a mask Pushing the real me further back Forget who I really am, short term memory Cuz I lost the good ones from the last century  I reach out to my friends so our relationship doesn’t end Then if I stop them texts, I’ll never hear anything