Doe In My Yard

Doe In My Yard I glimpsed out my bedroom window looking for nature's signs giving me clues about what today will bring. A lone doe was nibbling on the southern lawn grass. She slowly raised her head, vulnerably held still for about 10 seconds, and resumed nibbling the grass. Her movement was graceful and relaxed. She stood stock still, her head held high as assessing my threat to her. I too, follow her lead. She shows me that I'm not a threat to her. Her grace and ease reminds me to heighten my awareness of my surroundings. I'm reminded to trust my intuition, tap into my inner voice, and get out of my head. I tend to get too much inside my head when I feel vulnerable. Late last night I reviewed my day and the events that erroneously lead to my vulnerability. Once again, prolonged unknowns left me feeling off kilter and out of balance. Most of the day mindfulness helped me rebalance. I struggle to keep regret and subsequent guilt honed by decades keeping these at bay. Doing so keeps me from fully appreciating and living in the now. This reminder motivates me to continue challenging my survival childhood efforts and patterns that clearly no longer serve me. Instead I sometimes allow them to hold me back and falsely fuel my anxiety. As I reflect back it's apparent this old pattern happens less frequently. Yesterday I erroneously let that insecurity seep into a new relationship. It wasn't fair, all I can do now is take responsibility, make amends, apologize, and strive to approach everything without getting into my head, and trust my inner voice more. History proved when I trust my intuition, my life is better and I'm more at peace. Life is fluid and dynamic. When I get stuck in my head, I'm living life stuck and torpid. It's okay to feel vulnerable and capable of transformation. I want to continue following her ability to move through life with ease and adjust to changing circumstances. By tapping into my many strengths, and adapt to life's changes and challenges with resilience and ease. Reminding me to live my life in the now with a balanced blend of innocence, gentleness, self-awareness, and determination. This includes accepting my limitations, weaknesses and mistakes. This is key to continue this path to develop my full potential in all aspects of my life, and I'll feel more fulfilled. . All of this new found awareness because I saw a doe in my yard. Sherry Emma-Pederson Barton March 11, 2025