Distorted Faith

As I lay in this empty room
Alone and hiding in the gloom.
Pondering why I have become
A monster, hateful and loathsome.

I regret the day I found God,
for He has forsaken this lad.
I kept asking what have I done?
That made my life vanished and gone?

Why life does not have to be fair?
Seems for every joy there's despair.
I trusted God since I was born,
But why does my life filled with torn?

‘‘Ask my child and you shall receive'',
Lies that I honestly believe.
But now I do not even care,
Life’s full of unanswered prayer.

''Knock child and you shall be opened'',
Another lie that He mentioned.
I knocked and knocked but no one's there
Just myself begging love and care.

Will you tell me what did I do
That made my once happy life go?
Was it a test or was I cursed?
That made my life so freaking worst!
Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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Tuason Avatar
February 22, 2016 at 4:06 PM
God isn't exactly a nice person, and if you look at history and current affairs, it is actually the people who don't care about others and who are total bigoted snobs who tend to get it all, meanwhile the people who did the least to others and the world suffer the most. Case in point is women. Just saying. God all the time blames people, but it isn't necessarily their fault, nor is it because they are all that that they succeed. One of the hallmarks of an abuser is to blame their victims.
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February 26, 2016 at 11:25 AM
Wrote this poem during a lowest point in my life. I am not condemning god or whatever, I just showed what my emotions were during the time I wrote this poem.
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February 22, 2016 at 8:16 AM
Deep write Chuck, sad to see the sad emotions in this...Linda
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February 26, 2016 at 11:14 AM
Thank you Linda.
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