Disease

I walk amongst them but nobody sees I blend unnoticed As I inhale my disease The air is constricted causing me to fall All the things which once mattered Now seem not to matter at all Going nowhere just standing still Trapped inside of loneliness Since the day I grew ill Clocks keep spinning around me so fast I grow dizzy As I look back onto my past I see faint memories of who I used to be I see myself before I was infected And remembered what it felt like to be me I breath in the disease and then hold in my breath Again & again Causing me to walk one step closer to death Given a battle to fight without a chance I stood there with no weapon like a dancer without music to dance The disease has stolen my dreams I walk beside you unnoticed unraveling at the seams After inhaling my disease I’m trapped in one spot I vanish into a cloud of empty time Whether I want to or not I hold out my hands but no one is there for me I walk beside you Why can’t u see? I call your name but am not heard I try to scream But I’m unable to utter a word My body is tired and my mind is awake I am numb I can’t feel yet I continue to ache Shadows surround me without any signs of light I walk amongst u Simply pretending to be alright The disease has planted its roots deep inside The day I had been infected Was the day that I died I walk beside you smiling as if nothing is wrong Pretending to be like you Although I haven’t been for so long Blending into the crowd until I fade Vanishing into a realm of sorrow Inside the lonely life I made Knowing soon I will meet my end and have to say goodbye I no longer am afraid And I no longer cry The disease made me numb and is all that I feel I stopped crying My hopes and dreams no longer have appeal I take a deep breath but still gasp for air The disease surrounds me I can’t find an escape but no longer care Infected with an illness which has become my only friend Will anyone remember me Will anyone be there in the end? I close my eyes yet no longer dream The world around me vanishes Nobody hears me frantically scream