Desperate Hope

Don't do this to me, I'm dying inside Everytime it happens, all I want is to forget So I'll say 'everything is ok' Peace worth so much that I could do that Existence felt forever entwined Reality bites, I can no longer rest in the peace Awareness of how it'll be broken stark Trained into me now is oncoming dread Eternity lies ahead of me, I can't hold my breath How do I get from here to there Operation 'survival' Please let this be the right thing to do Eyes open, as hard as it is - trust myself