Depressions Curse
Its a wave of black smoke that just covers me
so suddenly, and there it traps me, drowns me
I cant breathe, can barely believe that im still alive
because all I see now is my empty life
im so alone, my heart has no home
I withdraw, close my door
my friends and family I ignore
this depression has its collar round my throat
takes me where it wants me to go
never knowing when the wave will appear
and no matter how hard I try it never clears
it controls me, consumes me,
and defeated me, im not who I want to be
my biggest fear is those thoughts I use to have
the pain I use to feel, yet still seems so real
to think about what it would be like
to end it all, for a rope to take it all away
it scares me to think what if the next time I follow through
show all the signs, and count my last breath - one, two
ive been so close
ive held the rope
gripping my skin
my throat closes in
this depression it hunts me like an enemy
like a gun pointed at my head, its right in front of me
so many things in my life get me down
just want to be free, and drop the knife
free from the torture and the pain that's inside
does anybody care? can they see the tears ive cried
Copyright © Sabrina Lambie | Year Posted 2016
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