Depression

When the sun shines bright and the sky is blue That feeling of happiness so friendly cheers you But away from the light blinds closed like the night Someone is lying curled up crying with fright The thoughts that are swirling in this persons mind Are dark and unfriendly a terrible kind Life has a down side that they comprehend That feeling of unhappy loneliness will it never end The door bell it rings let them go away Don’t want the bother in bed I will stay This life has no meaning they will not understand I don’t want sympathy my life’s in my hands Please God give me respite from these feelings so strong Unhappiness it seems has stayed with me for so long I dread the wakening from sleep each time That feeling of desolation it will not leave my mind The darkness gives me some comfort although it may be small This cocoon of self pity it seems I revel in it all That’s what those around me think when they recall The tantrums and the crying they say it is for sympathy that’s all But if they only knew the depths to which I sink The thoughts that torture my mind when I start to think This journey that I travel this hell I’m going through Maybe I should end it all perhaps that’s what I’ll do These feelings I will have to conquer because no-one knows but me They do not understand within the family They have had a lot of stress to live with because I’m ill The treatment seems to be working and I take the tablets still Talking through my feelings it seems so foolish but then If I am to recover and make this nightmare end I am the only one to help myself with my councilor so kind We intend to bring my inner most thoughts to the surface of the mind The stigma that is mental health most people don’t understand What has happened is she mad her life before her so grand But that darkness that is inside the mind it has a life that is so real Those feelings lets hope those doubters will never have or feel