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Same-O Same-O At work Usual crew Let me just do some mind numbing task so the hours could hopefully not be felt scratching at my back parading in front of my face reminding me how much of a bore my life is someone's coming of course someone's coming someone always comes when I just want to feel numb in this space of earth that I do not find enjoyment nor hatred just a neutral air floating around me so I could breath with out thinking more old crew coming in yupp of coarse I reply with no intention of knowing what he truly is talking about I go by very well with pretending so the sounds in his mouth could move along and lessen and I could go back to my simple task.. I'm a cynical bastard but I hate people that come out of the woodwork just because someone DIED and they want to announce themselves as the DECEASED'S True Friend. His words in bold cause me to snap back into reality Who died? So you didn't know Danny Died? And that's when my neutral state was stabbed with shock ..I guess not huh? ...I mean I know he was sick... He eyes had that yellow tint to them and he was really skinny that's why in my cell phone I put him as Danny Skinny I just didn't bother to ask him what was wrong ..and he...well..he didn't bother to tell ..what did he die of? He had some rare type of Bone Marrow Disease my point it he was suffering and no one should be sad for him he got to get out of a crap world and better yet this crap job today is his birthday...God is funny that way huh? my mind is somewhere else but I nod as usual wow... I met Danny through a friend and then found out he worked at my new job he was one of the only people at work I could talk with as myself not this mask that I flash to other co workers and customers... he was such a perv pulling down my shirt saying: show more cleavage you'll get better tips. and saying all my guy friends where my boyfriends. calling me the best at everything I did so many silly random memories of us just working here for three years... and now... He is right but I still feel sad When someone dies sadness is of the memories that pop up and not being able to make more fear surrounding cause it reminds us that we could die but death also reminds us to live and all these feelings lost anger love made me feel alive It took a couple of days but Cell: DELETE ENTRY? ...yeah... Danny Skinny Danny Skinn Danny Skin Danny Ski Danny Sk Danny S Dann Dan Da ...Bye Danny... D ENTRY DELETED