Deeper

My soul trapped, dark and broken Pain so deep no words could be spoken Buried within me scars like tokens A heart dormant is slowly awoken. A breath taken thru shaky lips Carefully placing my footing so I don't slip Happiness leaking but still just a drip A heart picking up pace this moment I can not skip Before me I sense a peaceful existence. Still the dark holds tight, showing its resistence. Loosens it's grip at my unfailing insistence Deep I pull air as I strengthen my persistence. Joyful laughter breaks thru the black My kids presence send awareness down my back Praying hard while staying on track This time not to come up short my efforts wont lack Moments start passing each one drawing my attention. Lightly formed smiles instead of the tension Losing this place was never the intention Wayward I went apologies were mentioned. Panic seeping in as fear tries to grab hold Lingering skeptisms from those times that are old Outward those lessons now learned are told A heart once frozen only slightly cold Doubt makes progress possible but slow Continue on letting the good in me show A chance for the impossible swells and grows This time more wise the purpose I know.. Gradually forward my feet keep going. Peaceful times brightly showing Love unconditionally thru me is flowing My family returns the future is glowing. Soon I will breathe deeply without a catch in this chest The bad will still visit but will leave upon my request For in this life finally there is beauty this I attest I'm letting go of the pain putting it silently to rest. The futures allure is throbbing within Simply a partner perhaps just a friend A chance of a future hope ushers back in Loudly I whisper an answer to his quiet shout Why live in limbo full of self doubt Happy endings are reachable if you let your heart out Journeys and chances are what dreams are about. This ending to a life well lived will not go without tears Journeys are full of trials and fears Alone never again thru the rest of my years Burning within me is the sum of all fears Love will conquer all demons and lives with in here.