Deep Down: a Bottomless Body

Wallow and vacant... Not at all significant... Feeling so breathless I’m feeling oh so worthless Depthless distress... I express hopelessness Swallow this pill of reality Deep down, a bottomless body Looked at by everybody Everyday, weighed down By an upside down frown Everyday, weighed down By an upside down frown Everyone is silent as a grave Chatting is even a sign of brave I’m an introverted extrovert I’m an extroverted introvert I’m not confused... I’m not abused... I’m not amused... I’m not bruised... Say hello to light again, to light again My heart is not broken Yet, you deliver me from words left unspoken You deliver me from words left unspoken My heart is not broken Deliver me from words left hurtful again Deliver me from actions I can’t undo again My heart is not broken Say farewell to the darkness of the den Depression frustrates my soul Anxiety hates my inner beautiful Just let it all go Let it all go Let it go Let go Go Show me flowers that flourish Give me what I wish...not this anguish Not this anguish...anguish... Anguish is my language...so lost in languish Just Ignore the nightfall Weep away my sorrow tears, tears Hear me as I fall and call Mend my broken, grief-stricken years Deep down, a distressed boy Deep down, an unimpressed toy Deep down, a bottomless body of lies Deep down, a hopeless nobody of goodbyes I’m sorry I’m feeling grief I just need, need utter relief... Underneath the rubble and water, There is the sunshine unlike any other Sunlit moon...sunlit moon...a bit of a witty moon Be there with me through the shiny afternoon The evening and night will be here pretty soon I wait here so patiently on the dusty, dirty deck of the lazily crazy lagoon I go down into the ripples of waves Because it’s hot as hell outside in my mind I allow my sweaty, hairy body to swim Swim in the lagoon of my mind’s eye, letting all stresses be left behind If you can be so kind, Be here to simply find My eyes are oh so blind Me lost and found in the riverbend These scars right here need a mend I don’t mean to offend, but I comprehend your empathetic feelings...that, I do comprehend Deep down, I noticed.. As I dipped my head into the rivers of woe, I knew something wasn’t right, I know... That these waters had crocodiles in a pair of 3 I begged to be set free, I begged to be set free Possibly, it’s remarkable to be in danger frankly Because, eventually, I escaped with pride and happiness Long story short, it felt good, But I felt guilty and remorseful because I left behind the lagoon The depthless, shallow, childlike joyous one a night too soon... I miss those long, weeping willow tree branches, kissing my bottomless body Deep down inside (I begin to dry oh so wide) I was that lagoon too; something in me died... As well as the creatures of aggressiveness, sending me bewilderment vibes abrew The lake-like lagoon was shades of blue with the moon of precious rue