Dear Mother

Oh mother, Who are in heaven, Why have you abandoned me? I know you just wanted me to have a daddy, But you would have been wonderful enough to fill any daddy’s shoes, I love you dear sweet mother- You are my heart, My soul, My song, You are in every breath I take and every word I speak, You are one with me, Even though you could never be- Here with me, Here with, Here, With me, Here. I love you with every fiber of my being in a way, That the sweetest words cannot even begin to express, I love you in such a way that brings the cruelest to their knees. Why did you have to do this to me? I despise that part of you, That part that passed on this illness- This unlivable illness and regret. With no memory of the past I hope only for the future, With no prayers said- I can only relax at the thought that you are safe, And someday in some light we will be one, Joined at last, Like we always should have been, Like we never got to be, Like your dearest mother always thought we would be. And I hope on, holding a few names and a picture. Stephanie Cosgrove and Heaven Marie Cosgrove. That is us my dear sweet Sister Agatha- And one day that is the way it shall be. (I hope.)