Here I lie, in the warmth of your body,
Slowly growing, making myself all cuddly.
I hear you talk; I hear your voice –
It brings me joy; yes, I rejoice!
I hear your laughter, echoing in my ears;
I feel your heartbeat, as it appears.
From here, within and close to you
I feel safe, safe near you.
I want to know you more,
Because it’s you I adore.
I hope you can see
The growth in me.
You seem to be sad, while I am changing;
You sound mad and my heart is aching.
I don’t understand your anger
It’s something much deeper.
What is going on?
Why is there no more song?
It’s hard for me to bear
The pain that makes me aware.
Will you keep me safe – Mommy?
I am scared; I am but a wee bonny.
There’s a lot of fear;
Mommy – it’s causing me a lot of tears.
I feel the fear arise within me,
As I wonder, will you ever see
The little tears, in my eyes?
I wonder – will you change your mind?
Mommy, I can already feel your pain
As your heart beats,
Causing you to slower your feet;
And making you think again.
But as I hope, I also sense
That there will be no defence –
No, there will be no spare
Because of all despair.
My heart is full of fear,
Mommy – can’t you hear?
Can’t you see I am scared?
Can’t you see it’s all there?
Mommy – won’t you keep me?
It’s coming, it’s frightening me
Mommy, please hear!
Please keep me near!
But as I feel a pain,
I feel strong arms picking me up.
I opened my eyes again,
And looked at a Man with a smiling face.
His bright eyes looked down on me,
He said, “I love you, My child.”
I felt safe again, I felt happy
And not defiled.
Mommy – please remember me,
Please don’t forget me.
I love you, despite what happened.
Mommy – I love you.
Copyright © Gracie Velia | Year Posted 2017