Dear God

Dear God I know you hear my crying From deep in the night I really am trying To make right I'm awake in my bed just there lieing To prepare for this battle I must fight The war best know as my life And how sometimes I don't want to get through the day Let alone the night And I must find the strength, the might To once again regain sight Of what awaits for me ahead Some of those things I know I will dread But moments must go on Time soon will be lost and gone Will I still be standing all alone Dear God I know you've seen my tears You know about all my fears Some have stuck around for years Why oh why can't everyone still be here Why did I let everyone important to me disappear I long for all my kids and him to be near Family and friends that are held in my heart that are so dear But I take what I got it's not everyone, but it's a lot I can't have it all So I need to stop hitting that brick wall I can't always seem to pick myself up from that fall Dear God I know you listen to my pleas Of how I could make time freeze Go back to when I was young Capture the feelings from the past Toss out what I've become And make the love I want to give last I have to dig my way out of this hole I need to capture what is left of me I need to re-capture my soul And again take control I need that little spark When all around me is getting dark Dear God I know I seem to ask a lot But right now I have to Use everything I know to do Cause it's all I got Battles to be won And some to be lost But all the fights will be fought Even when I have no strength And want to give in Because I know better than anyone This war with myself I may not always win But is will also probably never end