Deadbeat Dad's

All these years at home, me and my momma alone Daddy on the run, headed for the sun, he must of been.. Because I obviously wasn't his sunshine Growing up wishing you were there when I had something to say But now it's on pause, just like I am to write this There's no more fightin' it, I hate you daddy And I love writing it All the love and hate will come out, I'll be spittin' **** you And failure out of my mouth. And when I stop talkin' I'll be in a craze, glaring at him With my hate my hate and rage gaze I'll kick up my feet, scuff dirt in his face Tell him I put weed and lines of cocaine in his place And enjoy the disgrace upon his face And tell him that it's his fault for tappin' out in the first place Left alone in this world of demons Trying to find my halo in this crazy maze Raising myself, daddy left And mommas worrying about her ownself Life ain't always a perfect song, it skips and studders Fear, something nothing can cover My will is what I discovered, feelings uncovered She starts thinking and wonders Here dad, I'm gonna use brain Yeah, I'm a smart ass Fourteen years later And I'm pouring my heart out, at last Making it my point, I'm taking off my mask Getting it off my chest, and laying these demons to rest But **** me and the way I lived Playing dirty and not letting my emotions show Couldn't find mine So I stole someone else's halo But used it as a frisbee and chased it to hell Spittin' cards now with cruela di'ville And I know you're here too, in this fiery hell I'll find you and the corner in which you dwell And when I do, ******* You won't be slithering no more I'll take off you're scales one by one Make you the one who's coming undone Scatter your ashes on hells front door Bye daddy, now I'm the one who's leaving I'll shut it, make sure I slam it Throw in a **** you and god damn it God sure damned us alright But don't worry, I'll be sleeping tight Nightmares at night, no more I found my heart at my core Survivin', tryin' Leaving this life behind And one last thing to the guy Calling himself my ****ing dad I'm better off without you Bull**** if I'm gonna let you haunt my mind End of rhyme, I'm the one Leaving you behind this time.