Darkness of Me

Some loved ones of mine Have seen me trying to Turn back the hands of time But right here lays my heart Completely on the line And in seeing and knowing Just where I’ve been lately How far I’ve now came Those same loved ones would say In these moments of my life I’m in a darker place The emotions are much rawer With deeper intensity and extremely stronger This is because I’m afraid what I’ve been feeling For so long now is hopelessly wrong My days I don’t want to face And yes I’ve tried a different pace Only to find myself falling since I have no grace I’ve had the leather and taken the lace To think I may have to throw in the towel Walk away from this race My pain is never ending My heart is not yet mending What do I do now? This is not something I can let be That’s just not me Can’t you see I’m in this way to deep My loved ones think I may have lost my way Thing is I feel the same I fear it everyday There’s no one but me to blame We had the spark years ago I believe we still have the flame Even after all the pain We over came in our lives And all the rain That has poured out of our eyes And I’ll still be standing here Through all the pain and the tears Oh God please let him hear my cries My loved ones pray That I’ll get through this okay And that soon I’ll be shown the way Have my hearts desire But whatever the end finds itself to be My soul will never tire of the memories of you and me You will always be here inside My feelings I can’t any longer hide Away from anyone especially myself Whatever the future holds For each of us I hope you know I will always Miss and love you very much Even if I can never again have your touch I know, understand and yes I see There are those moments when I feel like I can’t even breathe I really do need to be able to fly free And save myself from this darkness of me Eventually