Christopher Goss Poet Free verse

Darkest Before Dawn

In my chest is a black void
That has left me annoyed
I'm tired of rhyming schemes
And vapid memes
I'm tired of perplexed faces
In outrageous places
Life is like a checkerboard
Where every king is abhorred
If I reach the other side
I'll still be a pawn trying to hide
My thoughts are obfuscated by clouds
And this inner anger that shrouds
This is my life and I'm not proud
To see I'm all alone without a crowd
When I'm the only one I'm lonely
A stony phony pronely 
Adept at throwing shade at my own life
And digging holes to fill them with strife
Because without the struggle I've got nothing
I'm just rushing to feel something
I'm being suffocated by my thoughts
But this fate is what I wrought
So I just want you to look me in the eyes
And tell me when I'm telling lies
Look at the tears staining pillows and sheets
When at thirty three I'm still without feats
And I don't want to be wrong
I just want to belong
And if that must be wrong
Then life will be long
A grisly song on repeat
As I face my defeat
And if I have to repeat
I'll march on these feet
To beg you to please meet
Me where lovers greet
Where brothers bleat
And mothers cheat
On another street
They smother sweets
And just like me there is a void
That has them all annoyed
But when you fill emptiness with emptiness
You're left with simply this
Feeling of being lost and without cause
And reflecting on that it gives me pause
If I've dug holes and filled them with strife
It's time to grab the shovel and dig out my life
And you can call me a pawn
Or say I'm small like a prawn
But I'll never be a bootlicker's spawn
Because it's always darkest before dawn

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Ink Empress October 9, 2023 at 3:10 AM Brilliant rhymes and rhythm to a very poignant and sincere poem that flows with so many deep emotions throughout this write. You’ve expressed very well here: felt this! “But when you fill emptiness with emptiness” that line! Hits hard i loved reading this

Karen Jones October 8, 2023 at 3:30 PM Very emotive and deeply melancholy. I notice the age was 33 and think wow so young and so full of emotions. At 53 you will look back and perhaps have a better view of things. I just hope you look forward as there is love for you if you seek it. I believe in love. Call me a romantic 55 year old! Engaging write was a bit sad but life is full of all kinds of feelings. It is important to give them voice as you courageously do.