Darkest Before Dawn
In my chest is a black void
That has left me annoyed
I'm tired of rhyming schemes
And vapid memes
I'm tired of perplexed faces
In outrageous places
Life is like a checkerboard
Where every king is abhorred
If I reach the other side
I'll still be a pawn trying to hide
My thoughts are obfuscated by clouds
And this inner anger that shrouds
This is my life and I'm not proud
To see I'm all alone without a crowd
When I'm the only one I'm lonely
A stony phony pronely
Adept at throwing shade at my own life
And digging holes to fill them with strife
Because without the struggle I've got nothing
I'm just rushing to feel something
I'm being suffocated by my thoughts
But this fate is what I wrought
So I just want you to look me in the eyes
And tell me when I'm telling lies
Look at the tears staining pillows and sheets
When at thirty three I'm still without feats
And I don't want to be wrong
I just want to belong
And if that must be wrong
Then life will be long
A grisly song on repeat
As I face my defeat
And if I have to repeat
I'll march on these feet
To beg you to please meet
Me where lovers greet
Where brothers bleat
And mothers cheat
On another street
They smother sweets
And just like me there is a void
That has them all annoyed
But when you fill emptiness with emptiness
You're left with simply this
Feeling of being lost and without cause
And reflecting on that it gives me pause
If I've dug holes and filled them with strife
It's time to grab the shovel and dig out my life
And you can call me a pawn
Or say I'm small like a prawn
But I'll never be a bootlicker's spawn
Because it's always darkest before dawn
Copyright © Christopher Goss | Year Posted 2023
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