Dare Not Raise My Sight And Ask How And Why

Dare Not Raise My Sight And Ask How And Why It is my time one other lesson to learn And see through pain truths that me burn In life nothing for granted is to gain To wage wars against kismet is vain Or think to a life through me I could belong And own the right to show right from wrong One other lesson despite what I am of age To reconsider what I feel and think is sage So humble to God that I dare not lament and whine I just have to bow and ask not to be a soul of no spine Rather able to endure what makes a backbone bend Not a human of fake strength trying to everything mend A human.. a woman of super powers.. what a fallacy ! Am of flesh and soul.. how it could be ? Have a mercy ! As a restless river my emotions abruptly flow When hampered, they inundate unable to slow With my oversight I failed to God’s grace praise Abundantly blessed I recall how I was in a daze Overwhelmed and seized by a heavy heart and many a sigh I moaned but dare not raise my sight and ask how and why The reason of mind a language the heart would reprehend In its pain or rhapsody so blurred to see and comprehend I pray to God scorching drops of pain dry and wane Like a land that has to drink and absorb a ravaging rain May God forgive my frailty His celestial wisdom couldn’t see And empty my soul from disquiet to find the path of serenity Nothing is under my control despite what I do and desire God’s goodness and grace if not perceived the soul is afire In the tranquility of my poetry my soul I bare and translate My wounds in words I breathe.. in me what is dark illuminate.