Dad, You Forgot To Love Me

I cant understand what it takes to be loved by a man To be cherished by a father Or to feel fatherly love like a daughter I cant understand why I was chosen to love a father who loves a bottle more than his seed Or why you only talk about me when you see me succeed I cant understand why my time and my smile and my happiness doesnt fit you Cause every last woman that you have put before me has used you All I ever wanted was you to be there for me I needed you and you told me to wait by the door of your heart and I waited You told me you loved me and I replay it Every broken promise that was fixed by a kiss Or every achievement that you’ve missed You forget that I exist for women who use your weaknesses against you They bring out your ugly side and you dont even know it The hatred I feel is intoxicating Is it easier to swallow poison? Or should I let you murder me with neglect? Or Slap me in the face with disrespect? Its no need to make things complicated Find the courage to ask for redemption Only to plead your heart out to someone who’s isn’t listening