Curse

The 1st time I used a profane word My tongue welcomed the new vocabulary with open arms Most days, I find it hard to cook without the extra seasoning The truth is, I find it hard to believe that there's a way for me to welcome you into my heart without giving you a tour of our spice rack So, tell me, why is it so easy for me to tell you I love you My mind spends days convincing me that these two are neighbors And that you'll leave me Too Sometimes, I find myself wondering how you'll break up with me In my eyes, we're two sheets from the same paper But I worry that you'll find someone who's from the same side as you The truth is, my brain doesn't want to believe that you're real I want to be happy But happy is a decision that I'm not qualified to make No, my happy is one not meant for me Still I wonder if it's me that's the problem How is that someone can be there For Me My body is a business and I'm the owner But I've been trying my best to buy a new building Yet, you've been convincing me to stay in this decaying dump My business is one not meant for the public No, my business has been shutdown for years now So, tell me why I should continue advertising for new customers Explain to me all of the reasons why I deserve to welcome new guests into my foreclosed business There isn't a logical reason to trust you The truth is, most days I feel like a cashier in this building So when you ask me what the secret ingredient is I want to tell you that it's something that hasn't been entrusted in me Yet I understand that you call this love But my love is one without a postage No my love is one that hides from all So when you ask me if I love you I want to tell you that I do Sometimes, I find myself hoping you'd stay in my life I know that it doesn't make any sense to clear out my inventory and expect you to be a customer in my shop I know that there isn't any logic in expecting you to be there for me While I become a stranded traveler I'm not an artist If I could, I'd paint all of the reasons why you deserve to invest in my rival company If I could, I'd illustrate all of the ways you are better than me I know that it's backwards for me to want us to be together and not want you to be there for me I know that's illogical for me to love you and expect you to hate me back All I ask is that you remind me to be a good guest in your home You have to tell me all of the rules so that everything works out in the end For us