Crying Inside

All these tears that I'm crying I'm just so sick of trying On the outside it looks like I'm smiling But I'm crying inside my heart's dying All this shouting and yelling I'm just so sick of telling That I cant do this anymore I am crying inside and my heart's hurting All this sadness and pain I'm just so sick of the rain I just can't hide it anymore I am crying inside my heart's bleeding again All this falseness, pretending I'm just so sick it's never ending I can't keep lying anymore I'm crying inside all these lies that I'm sending All this loneliness I feel I'm so sick it's so unreal My false smile might just hide it I'm crying inside my loneliness is real All this anger I'm fighting I'm so sick of it igniting I breathe deeply to stop it I'm crying inside my lips I'm biting All this craziness I'm living I'm so sick of not forgiving I fight it but it's futile I'm crying inside feels like I am for ever giving All this stalemate I am in I'm so sick to let you win Seems no matter what I lose I'm crying inside this is confusing All this help I feel I need I'm so sick I feel it's greed Want to fight this on my own I'm crying inside this is difficult indeed All this remembering I'm so sick I need forgetting Want these memories to go I'm crying inside this is so crippling All the things I sorely miss I'm so sick I feel useless Where's my childhood, where'd it go I'm crying inside I need a hug and kiss All this feeling of being odd I'm so sick to bear this rod Is it my fault I feel strange I'm crying inside spend my whole life on my tod All the people where've they gone I'm so sick been alone too long Never wanted to feel lost I'm crying inside where is everyone All these values seem amiss I'm so sick to feel like this I feel worthless and confused I'm crying inside there's so much I miss All this emptiness inside I'm so sick the chasm's wide My life is missing parts I'm crying inside just want to run away and hide All this fruitless holding on I'm so sick it should be gone I just can't let go I'm crying inside If I let go you have won All this regret for what is past I'm so sick my issues are vast I want to forget and start again I'm crying inside let me move on at last All this dreaming of what might I'm so sick it isn't right I can't live it over again I'm crying inside what's gone is yesterdays fight All this total exhaustion I'm so sick it isn't fun I'm real tired of feeling so tired I'm crying inside my next fight has just begun