Crush

I’m sitting here in nervous anticipation. Will I do it today? A melting pot of emotions: some good, some bad. Will I work up the courage? I guess we’ll wait and see. (I guess it’s all up to me.) The outcomes are running through my head as I’m laying here in bed. Yes. No. Maybe. I just don’t know, only time can tell. Lingering doubts in my mind are briefly washed away with small glimpses of hope. Please don’t let me down. It’s happened so many times before. Please don’t let me down, I can’t take being let down anymore. I hope and pray everything works out. Crazier things have happened to me before. Just give it a chance. Give me a chance. Just give me one last chance to live.