Craziest Time Amidst the Uncertainty

CRAZIEST TIME AMIDST THE UNCERTAINTY As I sit here battling my emptiness to not affect me or make this hollowness sink me, I tried my very best to stir my thoughts to things that could clear my mind and uplift and free my spirit from my feeling of internal conflict. There are days when the bleakness hits me, when the pang of longing overcomes me and I could not bring myself to not feel desolate from being cut off, totally separated from friends and for not doing the things I used to do and for not going to places I used to go. The not knowing is softly killing me. The uncertainty fogs by mind and suffocates me, making me crazy and going out of my head feeling I’ve been confined in prison and trapped needing to run away in an open space to breathe to be in an open space to hear my own breath. Imagining that freedom makes me escape this feeling of angst that overwhelms me. It makes me grounded again and quiets my mind, calms my emotion and eases the pain in my heart, gives me back my courage to face this storm and brings my faith and hope back to come to terms with the situation and be at peace instead of thinking of going to pieces. Yes, I have me and my loved ones. I may not be with them or may see them once in a while; but that’s how it would go for now. So here I am hoping and expecting that somehow the time would come soon to have the solution for this pandemic, affecting the global population. In this quiet deafening sound of silence and stillness, I feel I am whole again. 8/5/20... choice #5... 287 words