Counting From One To Insanity

one moment at a time two seconds pass by three thoughts in my head four times I click my pen five minuites drag out six carpet panels seven. sounds like heaven eight, not hungry but thank you nine, what is the time? ten musles twitching eleven beats pulsing in my head twelve voices haunting me thirteen the age it started fouteen days untill I went mad fifteen people to hold me down sixteen, my age now seventeen days of solitary eighteen years would've been freedom nineteen seconds changed me twenty links in the chain holding me together twenty-one ways to regret life twenty-two reasons to give up twenty-three celing squares twenty- four hours a day, ~Now what can I say, ~so they think I'm okay ~I'll even follow their way. twenty-five lines on a page twenty-six doctors rushing around twenty-seven pills failed twenty-eight times restrained twenty-nine days untill I give up. Thirty seconds untill next shot ~How many have they caught? ~Whats the number of times I've fought? ~When rest is all I've saught. Thrity-o...o...one more breaths Thirtyy_Two, shiny lights tHirty_thr3e, so sleepy ThIrTy... flower... i mean four ~Can I take much more? ~let me out the door. ~I havent been bad. ~just some fun I had _Sleep claims my eyes _doctors scrible on their pads _dream are welcomed in to haunt me _I fight the screams _more notes scribbled I loose the little sanity I had left while their needles never stop Count down, they say I count again. One more round of pain Two more people helped three times the effort four more tests five more pills six new rooms seven more lies eight apologies roll out of my lips nine more reasons to give in to the dark ten shaky fingers of death wrap around my neck ~I breath in ~ I let it out ~~All of it ~~~All of it -^--^v---^v----^v-----^v--^v_____________________________ ~Freedom at last