Paul Anthony Poet Prose Poetry

Could I Belong

I have a sadness, an emptiness 
why should I have to contemplate life,
For gods sake I'm only 5,6,7,8....
but I've got nothing, I can't see any pictures,
I can't dream in linked sequences,
I can't touch.... I can't feel my future
I have nothing to look forward to.
...Often I ask myself why... why me?
What have I done to deserve this?..
I see,.... I do feel what's happening
...I'm awash with despair
it's heavy... it weighs me down.
...What do I want? My most difficult question.
I search myself, I ask myself all the time,
Yet, the answer is simple, it's not really difficult.
..it's to belong, it's not much to ask for,
to really belong....just repeat it, go on... 'to really belong'
Doesn't that sound good...it feels good?
To be part of someone, something.
To fit together and know it's meant to be,
to feel right, to feel connected....a connection.
To be wanted, ….wanted for me!
To be embraced ….and feel safe, warm, loved
to be part of something and know I can stay,
I can stay.... because I'm wanted
because I belong.....
and then I too can feel light
I can breath,
I can feel,
my smile can spread from within and escape to my eyes,
it can grow...I can grow
…..but for now  if you'll allow me, I'll only dream

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Beata Agustin May 21, 2025 at 1:52 AM Thanks for sharing this... exposing your thoughts through your unique poetic style. Meanwhile, I greet you with the love of the Lord, expressed by John 3:16 of the Bible, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Be blessed.

Becca Teagan July 10, 2016 at 6:41 AM I hope you find many places where you feel you belong, including here on the poetry soup community.

Skat A July 4, 2016 at 11:07 PM Wow, what a list, Paul.skat

Poet Destroyer A July 4, 2016 at 9:23 PM Paul, well done. LINDA Paul Anthony July 10, 2016 at 7:57 AM Thank you Linda, poetry has become a vehicle which is enabling me to inform and speak to people/professionals who interact with children growing up in the care system. It gives them an emotional insight from a child's perspective