Controllers without control

The turn of a thumb And the flash of a screen Another year passes by With the hum of a machine Numbers and titles And words I don't mean It's hard to ask why And it's even harder to see Why am I still here? Who are these people? And could they ever be friends? Why do I cheer? For all that is evil? And just how the hell Could I ever make amends? As the world keeps on turning Like the wheels on a train They teach me that it's burning And it's my turn to pay But their words aren't for learning And the numbers only add more pain I'd like to think for myself And to make my own journey But I've got no truths to tell And all their lies have been burned in my brain So why do my hands Keep these circuits so near When deep down I know My smile isn't here I look across the land And see a sky that's so clear It almost let's the light Between the space of my ears