Control

Why do I get so angry? I wanna hit you in the face! I know it's not my position, But I'd like to put you in your place. My cheeks are getting red now, My feelings I can not hide. It will only be a moment before they come outside. I try to hold them in my head. "Take a second" I tell myself. "Gently take your thoughts and lay them on the shelf". My eyes are getting tighter, I just don't know what to do. I have to get control before I shoot my look at you. My shoulders are getting heavy now, My back is starting to straighten. Be very careful, `cause in a moment I can be very blatant. It's not my fault at all you see, I wish I had an answer. I wish I knew what was wrong with me, Each time it gets much faster. The morbid and crazy things I feel, The thoughts rush to my head. I don't really mean what I am saying God, But I often wish I were dead. I want to stay here and live my life. I'm trying to figure out how. How do I control my feelings? I have to learn right now.