Contradicted Convict Finds Concept

I used 2 think I know what I wanted out of my confused soul/ I want not what I have ,I want what I never had/ I want my time 2 stop, yet it still continues 2 go/ I strive 2 be good but almost always end up in the bad/ Livin in this American Struggle I was once happy, now seems like Im forever sad/ Im a man of values and peace but find myself in corruptness and fights/ In prison I had many dark days and very few bright nights/ No matter how wrong I was I am still 100% right/ Im searchin for inner peace but find myself so self-conflicted/ I want this but rather have that, Im so self-contradicted/ I find my heart fightin lovely thingz my soul so badly hated/ I want 2 be normal but find my talents by so many overrated/ I find it so easy 2 forsake that I rarely myself ever forgive/ My mind wants 2 die while my heart still wants to live/ I want to be recognized that I go unnoticed and lose track of the real me/ So I came 2 a concept of appreciating the fact that Im now free/ Now I just want to kick back an be me....